Good morning!
I hope you're all having a fantastic day so far, today is a busy day for me but I just wanted to write this quickly before I have to get ready for the day.
So personal development - what does that mean?
In order to succeed in life and in this business that I'm in, you need to think about personal developmen because you need to become a better version of yourself. In my case it's all about overcoming fears and stepping out of my comfort zone, it's about doing stuff right away and not procastinate, it's about getting up in the morning and do something so I don't stay in bed all day. It's just all about improving yourself. You most likely won't succeed with anything in life if you just stay in bed all day and have negative thoughts about yourself, so you need to improve yourself, not change but improve. You still want to be yourself, so don't go changing your personality and favorite color and all that, just find some traits that maybe aren't as good as other traits and just improve them, become a better version of yourself.
One year ago I was a mess, just a total mess. I was depressed, anxious, antisocial - you name it. I skipped school, stayed in bed all day everyday, barely ate anything, didn't really talk to anyone, procastinated until there was nothing left to procastinate, I was just a huge emotional mess and I didn't do anything about it until october ish last year.
My situation was not ideal for a 18-19 year old girl. I was skipping school pretty much all the time, I pushed my friends away, I was in a bad relationship that just made everything worse and I barely ate on top of everything. Now that I look back, the one thing that kind of made me realize that I need to do something in order to succeed in life, was the breakup. We had been together for over 2 years and it was great the first 5 months, after that it all went south. When I finally decided to break up with him, I got rid of all that negativity that was holding me back from living my life and as soon as that weight lifted from my shoulders, I saw things from a different perspective. I tried to get back into studying (although that didn't seem to work out because now I'm here, with no education lmao, writing a separate post on that), I started hanging out with friends and I was just overall happier. Just a week after I had officially ended it with my now ex, I met this amazing person and we just sort of clicked. I had promised myself not to get in another relationship ever again, but he was just so amazing in every way possible and I couldn't resist. Some people think it happened way too fast and think I should have waited at least a few more months before jumping back into a relationship, but I had been mentally checked out of the old one for a really long time, I was just waiting for the "right time" to break up and I felt like I needed an excuse to do it but I realized that me not being happy is more than good enough. So I started seeing this other person and it was fun, it was exciting and I started feeling things that I hadn't felt for months. I don't regret "jumping back into a relationship" so early because it was unexpected and I felt good about it. My life is mine and I don't give a single shit about what other people think I should do (unless I ask for advice). We have been together for just over 7 months now and I'm just as happy with him now as I was in the beginning.
I was on anti depresssants when I met him, I went to a psychologist regularly and I literally felt like shit, but somehow he made me feel stronger and more secure so I slowly started to break out of my shell. I went to school and talked to my teachers, we decided that I would take one extra year to catch up with classes. I got back into the horses, I started reading again, I even started working out. All I needed was a litte support and love, even though I had my family and friends who gave me endless support and love, I just needed that extra little push.
But enough about my love life.
Here are some things I did to improve myself:
I went outside more, just breathing in some fresh air made me feel better.
I started talking to people and seeing my friends.
I spent time with the horses (which is what I love the most in this world so being with them calms me down).
I got back into reading and not just fiction, I read about personal development too.
I started eating more and a little better.
I started getting up earlier in the morning and I always make my bed so I feel more productive.
So today's lesson is: Prioritize yourself, don't make excuses for someone else, never give up on yourself.
I'm now a happy 20 year old girl, I don't take any medication, I don't see a psychologist anymore and I have my very own business that is growing everyday😍
And now I really need to get ready for the day so adios amigos!
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